I barely like you
It's really the memories that
Hold me
Hostage
My mind make me watch it
Replay it over and over again
Being close to him
Smelling his skin
Sucking his lips
Tasting his chin
My mind replays this ish over and over again
Taking out the bad parts of how you weren't really there for me
Remixing all the moments you couldn't look out for me
Or didn't listen
Or when you lacked vision
No direction
No mission
No plan
No freakin' ambition
Or wanted me to possibly take care of you and me
Or wanted me to guide the ship
I ain't captain T
I ain't mr. D
He who has the dick
Should not rely on me
Mama's boy will play with toys
But you will not play with me
Boy toys r us is closed
And you will not play for free
So why I feel
So played geez
Nevermind
No nickels no dimes
New car
Spit shine
Spend time
Lay up
Make up
Just get your bread up so you can be mine
But why should he change
If I let the shit slide
Why should he change if I didn't mind?
Better when
We were friends
Heaven sent
Had me bent
Knowing this
Loving him
Was never meant
So evident
But I can't deny
I surely enjoy the ride
Enjoy the ride
I can't deny
I surely enjoyed the ride
Bigger than elephants
In a room
With no air
We fuck up the vibe
Cause egos don't like to share
Egos like elephants
Elephants like egos
Wish i had a giraffe neck
To see around it
Tho it was see through
That Ike and Tina thing was never been sexy to me
A toxic relationship with music notes and poetry
Not the sort of bed I wanted to lay in
Or stay in
But i'm laid up
After a bad argument
Here comes the good fuck
Here comes the good love
Who cares about the drama
If we end with a good note
I mean good nut?
Naa Tank's not like that
She write poems and leads with love
But I'm a black woman with trauma
My blueprint fucked up
I mean I want my relationship to work
But I'm fucked up
Better when
We we friends
Heaven sent
Had me bent
Knowing this
Loving him
Was never meant
So evident
But i can't deny
I surely enjoy the ride
I can't deny
I surely enjoy the ride
Enjoy the ride
Enjoy the ride