I'm just letting the intro play out for right now
Twenty
I got contacts in my phone that'll never ring again
Dead end, dead end, dead end, dead end
All that fawning got me lead
To a fantasy that bled
No red, no red, no red, no red
I got contacts in my phone that'll never ring again
Dead end, dead end, dead end, dead end
All that fawning got me lead
To a fantasy that bled
No red, no red, no red, no red (yeah)
What happens when vulnerability used against you (no kitty)
Emails, voice memo, I was in a queue
The unavailable, used to pursue (for real)
Wasted energy, attention, should've withdrew (uh huh)
Gave me another chance, and my feelings grew (yup)
Made a whole project for you to see my view (I did)
Show how I sorta flew, all the pain I used (uh huh)
To still stand, but really, did you care dude?
(You haven't changed!)
What hurt the most is that I thought you different
All those minutes I thought you listened (uh)
You wanted me to fly out, visit for tickets (yeah)
MIKE concerts with the evil eye vision (what)
I forgot how it felt to be desired more (uh huh)
Now I care less than I ever did before (uh huh)
I'm showing pity all up at your front door (okay)
Self control all up in my love core (alright)
I ain't gonna suffer in silence (yeah)
Thinking 'bout "what if" scenarios, so wylin (uh huh)
We all hurt kids with the pain as mileage (yeah, yeah)
'Scuses all in just to act all childish, hmm (huh)
I remember at the end of '22
You didn't wanna leave things on a bad note
And I wanted you safe, try not to cope (shawty stay safe)
The words so fickle, thank God I'm lone
I got contacts in my phone that'll never ring again
Dead end, dead end, dead end, dead end
All that fawning got me lead
To a fantasy that bled
No red, no red, no red, no red
I got contacts in my phone that'll never ring again
Dead end, dead end, dead end, dead end
All that fawning got me lead
To a fantasy that bled
No red, no red, no red, no red (Wait, I got a question)
If your leg gets caught in a sewer drain (uh huh)
And the water pouring quick like an army raid (uh huh)
Would you cut it off so you could stay (yeah)
In this life but stick the phantom pain
Whatever (Snaaaake!)
I used to be afraid of missing out
'Till I got my life back, you can hear it in the sound (yup)
Waiting in vain kept me so in doubt (mhmm)
Like a puppet on a string, I feel like Marley in the clouds (woo)
I'm a diamond in the midst of the dull and broken hearted
The one's identity that's been lost since postpartum
Got a new clique, now you feel so guarded
My thoughts stay raw, no contraceptive, just aborted
The terms of relation if there ever was one (yep)
The memories just burdens that just weigh a ton (uh huh)
I'm letting in, I'm letting out, that's how the blood run (yeah)
Got the present, and the future, in my hands, son
(Don't play with me!)
Another year older, I got my own quota (yeah)
Sometimes I choke up at the fact my mans didn't hold up (Uh huh)
Like I said in "Butterflies", we staying poured up (for real)
But I can't numb the feeling, all the jokes done (they done)
I been a prima donna since my birth (yeah)
Attention seeking for some self worth (yeah)
I lost some face and got a little hurt (yeah)
The pain made me learn
Now I'm taking over turf (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And you stuck tryna lurk (yeah)
I got contacts in my phone that'll never ring again
Dead end, dead end, dead end, dead end
All that fawning got me lead
To a fantasy that bled
No red, no red, no red, no red
I got contacts in my phone that'll never ring again
Dead end, dead end, dead end, dead end
All that fawning got me lead
To a fantasy that bled
No red, no red, no red, no red
I've been retrospectively viewing these last twenty years of my life
And wondering why
I bring in the certain types of energies and people that I do
And these last three years have been a huge amalgamation
Of this common thread in my life
The straw that broke the camels back
So stay tuned, because it only gets better