Alibis - Marianas Trench

From the scrapes and bruises 
To the familiar abuses 
I'll kick and scream but it never changed anything 

I could spill my guts out 
Wearing my best little girl pout 
And I almost missed it 
But nobody said that this was gonna be easy 

This is not the man I hoped to be 
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding 
I don't know how to word it 
I just started to deserve it 
And all my, all my faces are alibis 
And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be 

Most times it all comes out wrong 
I don't know the words but I'll hum along 
There's nothing famillar here anymore 
to anyone or anything left to feel alive 

And I still taste that sickness 
And it makes me crazy without it at best 
But I'm in the same place I used to be 
But I'm trying harder not to be 

This is not the man I hoped to be 
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding 
I don't know how to word it 
I just started to deserve it 
And all my, all my faces are alibis 
And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be 

So what am I? What am I? So What Am I? 

And all my, all my faces are Alibis 
This is not the man I hoped to be 
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding 
I don't know how the words go 
I just started not to say no 

Don't want it, Don't get it 
I know you won't regret it 
Don't surface, Don't surface 
And I feel so damned worthless 
Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis 
all ym faces are alibies 

and me, I'm half the man I wanted to be