Change My Life Prod. - Zayn Malik

Yeah Mark, you're the one with the words,
But my side should be heard
Think that it's fucking absurd
You talk about me when you rap about her
All of your songs, hear about all of my wrongs
Like you never played me like porn
Like you never went out and did nothing wrong
It's crazy forever turned into so long
Now that you're gone I had to move on
And I'm happy with him
But I still can't pretend that I didn't go fuck with your friend
Every now and again
I be thinking that then,
I be thinking that that was something I would never intend
And especially when it was me who you trusted
To take all your feelings and try to remend it
It's so hard to pretend
I would lie in your bed giving you head
Listen to all of the things that you said
Listen to all of the lyrics you read
You were chasing a dream
I would party instead
Young and in love
Young and we're dumb
I could taste all of the pain on your tongue
I could taste all of my pain in the rum
Knew it was over before it begun
Looking for fun, burning my lungs
Learning my favorite feeling was numb
I bought every dinner, you barely bought one
Maybe I cheat and then we could be done
That would be done, we were so broke
You were the one that turned into a joke
I kept us afloat
You were the one that kept busting a rope
Damn
Now you're the man, huh?
I see you turned into somebody I can't stand
Knowing you made us all part of your plan
You crazy fuck
I had the chance I should of ran, huh?
Never would tell me you cared
Never were there
Remember that night that we went to the fair?
Every fine girl that walked by you would stare
See, even with them, Mark, you never were there
If all I cared about was my makeup and hair
All you cared about was the ego you wear
You tear me apart and continue to tear
Now I'm with someone who actually cares
Fuck you!
But I can't keep you off my mind
I'm seeing everything you drop
Sometimes I wish that I was blind
You make me relive my mistake
A million trillion fucking times
See you're a coward,
And a stupid rapper soul is what you hide behind
And my whole family still adores you
I tried a million times I would of only did that for you
I can't act like I don't know you
Every night I would explode
You made me feel I was below you
Mark I wish I could ignore you
But I...
Can't... Damn...

Would you have it
Cause you tell me you love me again and again
You were only a friend
It was all a pretend
I wrote so many letters but never hit send
I was never content
I was set on me being a rapper
I thought about music and thought of you after
It's funny how tears turn to laughter
And tears on a page they can turn into a masterpiece
That's how you told me to leave
I remember that night it's as clear as can be
You found a new man
And he loves that you drink
And he loves getting head
But don't care what you think
You look pretty in pink
You look naughty in red
We know these are the words that would never be said
And we're chasing a topic that's over your head
Cause you think about me every night as you lie in your bed
That's... Real.

Well I guess we all change,
Mark,
I guess we all change,
I hope that you get everything that you want
As you yell and you stand on the stage
You took all your pain
And turned it to fame
They're screaming your name
And going insane
I kept all our pics but threw out the frame
Before I knew it
I knew Mark never wanted the same
But what about me, mother fucker?
Forgot about me, mother fucker
Except when you talk about me, mother fucker
I'm tired of hearing about me, mother fucker
Your mouth was a blessing and now it's a weapon
Remember the time and the love we invested
I'm posting a pic and I'm getting attention
My tits and my ass get a favorite in seconds
See you were with me but were thinking of her
Now I'm with him and I'm thinking of you
Together to never whatever we were
We're stuck in a cycle
The cycle is cruel
A couple of fools
Stuck in a pool of people that wanna be cool.
See we're never happy, we're happy
So we keep on searching for love
As if love was a jewel
Remember that night that you came to my school?
Stayed up all night and we talked about life
My parents and I, we would constantly fight
You said when you make it
I might be a stay at home wife
Apparently that wasn't right
We lived in the moment that lasted a night
And honestly, Mark, gotta start to start to move on with your life
Sincerely,
A letter we never would write.
Like, what are we doing?
Like, what am I doing?
Writing these letters but what am I proving?
I'm stuck in my room and I'm spilling it all
Thinking of what you would say if you called
I might be the biggest mistake of them all.
My biggest mistake was to think that I never could fall
Like, falling for you
Falling in love
Follow my dream
And that's all of my love
I just want to feel I've been feeling so numb
To think that I know how you're feeling is dumb
We're done
Right from the start
Right from the heart
A light in the dark
They say that you open and tear you apart
Now this is our letter we sign it:
Sincerely, Mark
This is our letter, we sign it
Sincerely, Mark