Crawl - Oblivion Dust

I woke up thinking how I've never had a good time
I seem to lack the kind of life that everybody has
I gotta have it, I gotta have it
The perfect feeling that everybody has
A little confused
To why I continue
To let the maggots enter me and live
I better sterilize my heart today
I better sanitize my mind again

And when I crawl
I bleed like an angel
Suicide
I'll never die because I haven't lived cause it's
Something I could never find
Something I could never find

I'm ripped up by all that I've found
Something aims at me from up in the sky
I'm still confused
To why I continue
With every day I change a little more
I have to fabricate myself today
I have to recreate myself again

Maybe my fault that I never really opened up
Take away every last piece of life cause it's
Something I could never find
Something I could never find