Monster, how should I feel (It's a K-N-O-X)
Creatures lie here
Looking through my window (Let's get it in this time)
Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here (Check it)
Looking through my window
Overcome some days with a shadow of doubt
I walk around in the graveyard so hollow and down
As I follow the sound of the ones I lost - the ones not here
I feel so 'Divorced' and lost - cuz' I miss
Every single one of ya'll
And every year my resolution is to ball harder
Than Coach Carter and every one of his daughters
I do it for them, I do it for you, I do it for me
People wanna see how I'm smooth with the beats
Got a boulder on my shoulder - I don't do it with ease
I forgot all my manners I don't do it to please
'Uhaul' for Einstein how I move MC's
Mama told me I'm a fighter
I guess that's why I'm punchin' everytime that I'm writin' - strike it
Merriweather leave a dent with a pencil
This beat's for the haters - they are instrumental
Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here (Yeah)
Looking through my window (Just let it play, man)
Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here (I got this one)
Looking through my window (Check it)
For my girl - you remember that night?
It's funny how we fall like November in a fight
You remember who was right? I was wrong
It's funny how I admit it now when you're gone
And to my boy Nic man I'm sorry for the fall out
I can't forget them times at the beach we would straight ball out
And tell people we were cousins - but really you my brother
Actin' like cops gettin' ladies under covers
Drivin' mothers and they sisters so crazy
Like "Have you seen their fuckin' boyfriends lately?"
Askin' where they daughters at wonder why they skippin' class
Why they with his broke ass now they callin' him their baby?
God damn how I miss you dude
I know you up in heaven right now missin' me too
So pour that goose hope you feelin' at peace
Fuck that monster in my room 'cuz I feel like a beast
Monster, how should I feel (I mean how should I feel, man)
Creatures lie here
Looking through my window (If you saw what I saw everyday)
Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here (I mean I don't even know why I do it sometimes)
Looking through my window (But fuck it)
I'm tired of payin' these promoters
Who tell me to play when the pay is bogus
There's no way to focus on what matters most
Entertainin' the crowd and attackin' shows
When you tryna rap out with ya back exposed
When they pocket all the profit and 'G's'
Promotional needs to studio fees
It's like they're holdin' the keys - they got a hold of the knees
To my city, man, fuck that wear it's on
You wanna 'run my town'? Get a number in the marathon
From now on, I swear that I'm wearin' bombs
And I'ma blow on any motherfucka tellin' me to "pay to play"
When my budget is none - why the fuck you think I'm back to sellin' drugs and bud, huh
Cuz' love won't pay to drop a rhyme in the Club
When my pen run outta ink I'ma sign that shit in bloood, motherfucker
Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here
Looking through my window
Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here
Looking through my window