Don't ask me how I'm doing, I'm gonna lie to you
I feel the need to please my people, it's just what I do
So dry your tears, I always got you, ain't as bad as it seems
I can't imagine if I lost you, you mean too much to me
I'm writing paragraphs to beg you not to end it all tonight
'Cause I know that you would always do the same for me, right?
If the roles are reversed and I was fading away
You'd take my 13 reasons why and give me a billion to stay
What do you mean you can't talk right now? I knew I was a burden
No-one wants to talk to me when I'm really hurtin'
And this is why I lie, why I smile and fake it all
Being broken isn't hot to you, depression's a turn-off
So turn it off, pretend again that everything's okay
Save the mental breakdown, save the tears, ignore the pain
Wait 'til you're alone so no-one sees you at your worst
'Cause the more you open up, the more it fuckin' hurts
Ohh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough
Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love
Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive
I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive
I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to provide
I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine
Why would I self-care if there is no self-love?
How do I remain selfless as I create more cuts?
Why do they stare like I'm a freak in a cage?
Do you really fucking think that I enjoy this pain?
Don't you know that I loathe it when you all press your little noses
As you kill a little piece of me under nods of condolences?
I think that I'm out of my mind and I don't want you to know
But I cut deep this time because I wanna let go
"Hang in there, baby" it sounds so easy and basic
And it's easily said from someone who already made it
I ain't strong enough to make it through another day
And I'm so fucking tired of saying it'll be okay
Prove that shit, or get out of my face
'Cause you don't know what's in my head, or why I numb the pain away
And you don't care, neither, so stop acting like you do
I don't need you to be fake, I just needed someone to talk to
Ohh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough
Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love
Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive
I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive
I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to provide
I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine
I've gotten so used to pretending to be who you need and not who I am
When will I learn my lesson? These are the confessions of an empath in need of a friend
Ohh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough
Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love
Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive
I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive
I'm trying not to cry (trying not to cry)
I'm trying to provide
I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine