Good For Nothing - Cardinal Sin

Why do I learn enough to just get by? 
Enough to make my family cry 
Will I ever escape and would it ever last? 
Or will I crawl back? 
This is not the life I asked for 
I'm face to face with all my demons 
Turnmy head but can't ignore 
This state I'm in 
Will I get to the next? 
Will I ever get to have some rest? 
Knowing that everything's all good 
Barely scraping by, never ahead 
Sick of asking help from friends 
Will I ever wake up before it's out of hand 
When will I learn? 
I tell myself to calm down 
Sit back,just relax 
No need for a heart attack 
But I'm having trouble shaking disappointment 
Sorry Mom and Dad