I Really Loved Harold - Emiliana Torrini

They told me when I was little, 
I'd go to heaven if I was good. 
Now I'm a long way from little, 
'Cause I tried to find heaven, 
'Cause I thought that I could. 
I thought that I could. 

And I thought I loved Harold, 
And I really loved John, 
I really loved Alphy 
I almost loved Tom. 
I loved them so easy, 
And I loved them so free. 
Now I don't think that heaven 
Will wanna love me. 

Hallo, song of the willow, 
The dreams under my pillow, 
Turned to tears that I cried. 
Beauty and love are our riddle, 
Never to answer, but always to try. 
And, boy, did I try. 

And I tried with Harold, 
And I tried with John. 
I tried with Alphy, 
And almost with Tom. 
I left myself open, 
For the whole world to see. 
Now I don't think that heaven 
Will wanna love me. 

So I said goodbye to Harold, 
And goodbye to John. 
Goodbye to Alphy, 
And goodbye to Tom. 
I loved them so easy, 
And I loved them so free. 
Now I don't think that heaven 
Will wanna love me. 

Oh say, can you see? 
By the dawn's early light 
No light will shine me