I Was Hoping (99X Live) - Alanis Morissette

as we were talking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by 
the 
subject matter 
my wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know please 
don't 
tell her or anyone 
but I need to talk to somebody 
you said "Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five 
minutes before 
I died I'd be filled 
with such regret before I took my last breath" and I said "You're 
willing to 
tell me this now 
and you're not going to die any time soon" 
and I said I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything and you 
said yes 
but you've been wearing leather and laughed and said we're at the top 
of the 
food chain 
and yes you're still a fine woman I cringed 
I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other 
I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together 
we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said 
"good-bye sir 
thank you for your business sir you're 
successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which 
you dine 
here sir 
and your money" and when I walked by they said "thank you too dear" I 
was all 
pigtails and cords 
and there was a day when I would've said something like "hey dude I 
could buy 
and sell this place so kiss it" 
I too once thought I was owed something 
I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other 
I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up 
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow 
I too once thought life was cruel 
It's a cycle really you think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you I 
think 
you're insensitive 
and I don't feel heard and I said do you believe we are fundamentally 
judgmental? Fundamentally evil? 
and you said yes I said I don't believe in revenge in right or wrong 
good or 
bad you said 
"well what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room 
bleeding 
after beating his kid 
and she threw a shoe at his head. 
I think what he did was wrong and I would've had a hard time feeling 
compassion for him" 
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged 
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together 
I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together