Medicated To The One I Love - God Lives Underwater

I just cant figure myself out 
Or what's surrounding me 
Or what I surround myself with 
A 2 ton fist is pushing me to the streets again 
Looking for relief in my restricted state 
I wake from dreams of high before I rush by a crush I have on you 
You're a lover most true 
I'm falling off again 
You'll always be my friend 
She never lies but she eats me alive 
Elastic mind that always bends for my drug of choice 
I think I hear her voice 
It's like pixies and angels and cocteau twins so beautifully sung 
But it's a noose she's hung