My So-called Life - Lauren

About to burst
violence seeping through my cracks
i bottle up the pain
cover up my sorrow with a couple of laughs

Smiling outside (and Im)
Crying inside(and Im)
Losing faith in what I feel (oh)
This hurt can't be real

Living in my so-called life
trying so hard not to cry
theres so much i lock up inside
the good things in my life have died
im losing losing myyy mind

Im falling down
and I can't seem to pick myself up
Everytime I find a good thing for me
I lose it and get stuck in a rut

Smiling outside (and Im)
Crying inside (and Im)
Losing faith in what i feel (oh)
this pain it cant be real, oh it cant be real

Living in my so-called life
trying so hard not to cry
so much i lock up i bottle inside
the good things in my life have died
loooosing my mind

Hide behind my wall of shame
Im tired of playing this game
I try to let my saddness out
but theres everything to lose and nothing to gain

Ive lost my will to live
Suicidal but I'm in denial
in the mirror i see a broken child
but yet i hold on, yeah i hold on

Just livin in my so-called life
trying so hard not to cry (I cry)
Hurts to breathe
just livin in livin on, livin in my so-called life
Livin on i wont cry
I let my feelings out from inside
and the good things in my life keep me alive
in my so-called life