One Day Soon - Grey Eye Glances

if I could write you in a novel 
I'd portray you on a farm somewhere in France I could diagram the story 
I could see that you escape 
I could disguise you and drive you to the cape but I never want to tell you why all of this happened 
 
and if I could send you letters 
I would sculpt my words with insights 
from six centuries 
I could talk of my philosophy 
watching stars out on the dock 
I could argue all the finer points 
of Kant, Rousseau and Locke 
 
but I never want to fear anything that I say and I never want to stop you 
or keep you from play 
and I never never never never ever 
want to run away 
from my own life 
 
one day (when there's fairer weather) 
one day (when you feel much better) 
one day soon (when it's so much clearer) one day soon 
none of this will matter 
 
so if I brought you painted flowers 
could I take you to New Orleans for the summer I could read to you from Dickinson 
on her battle with herself 
and complain about the heat there 
and effects it has on health 
 
but I'm never gonna tell you 
how crazy you make me 
I'm never gonna be what you wish you were lately and I never never never never ever 
hope you feel this far 
 
one day (when there's fairer weather) 
one day (when you feel much better) 
one day soon (when it's so much clearer) one day soon 
none of this will matter 
 
sleeping on the hammock 
and wincing as the rain's beginning 
writing off the whole thing 
pretending that I never noticed 
drifting in the aftermath 
afterwards it changes 
all the suffixes and subtleties 
binding me to latter statements 
said in anger 
said to strangers 
stranger things have happened 
 
one day (when there's fairer weather) 
one day (when you feel much better) 
one day soon 
 
but I never want to be the one 
you once regretted 
and I never want to make you 
or take you for granted