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[00:01.23]Tear drops in the pillow on my bed
[00:03.41]Still trying to keep my head up
[00:06.57]Know you'd rather see me dead
[00:09.49]And the raindrops keep on falling
[00:12.49]I said they keep on falling
[00:13.59]And they keep on falling
[00:16.02]I said they keep on falling
[00:20.93]Slaughterhouse, yo
[00:21.88]I'm the product of when a nigga mama gives up
[00:24.15]Crying, laying in the trash with the lid shut
[00:27.24]Ain't got no family, my mind is tender
[00:29.20]My daddy's invisible, my Mom's is Brenda, uh
[00:32.60]If I survive I'm grow into what
[00:35.33]Society considers trash, the rope is to us
[00:38.48]That mean I'm hanging myself by living
[00:40.75]The noose is getting murdered, that or going to prison
[00:43.12]My mind's controlled before I learned mind control
[00:45.71]What you call living life, I call dying slow
[00:49.72]I'm genetically predisposed
[00:51.59]The reaper the only thing that can ease my soul, freezing cold
[00:54.87]Feeling like I was given life
[00:57.15]And if I take it, at least I choose
[00:59.94]I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops
[01:02.31]'Til then all I'm hearing is wind and rain drops
[01:06.65]Tear drops in the pillow on my bed
[01:08.21]Still trying to keep my head up
[01:10.68]Know you'd rather see me dead
[01:13.06]And the raindrops keep on falling
[01:16.88]I said they keep on falling
[01:19.64]And they keep on falling, falling
[01:25.08]'Cause this is my pain
[01:25.62]Dear Auntie, I still feel your timeless sorrow
[01:27.95]Before you died, it's like your body was mine to borrow
[01:30.56]Like I jumped in your physical shell while you was
[01:33.21]Going through miserable hell saying goodbye to tomorrow
[01:36.05]Everyday it makes me sad, angry, mad
[01:38.75]How you were sent to heaven's sacred path
[01:40.53]Duct taped and gagged, plus raped and stabbed
[01:43.28]Body draped in blood, what a fate to have
[01:45.94]Such a pitiful end, I'm popping Ritalin like they Skittles
[01:49.39]'Cause when I sleep, I can feel it again and again and again
[01:51.82]And it's difficult, killing is the wickedest Biblical sin
[01:54.84]I'm talking about Mama's identical twin
[01:58.08]I see your face when I look at her
[01:59.55]Her reminder of how I've been in the cold since 14 years old
[02:03.03]I swear to God, I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops
[02:05.73]'Til then all I'm hearing is wind and raindrops
[02:08.58]Rest in peace, Chacha
[02:11.05]Tear drops in the pillow on my bed
[02:11.95]Still trying to keep my head up
[02:14.47]Know you'd rather see me dead
[02:17.02]And the raindrops keep on falling
[02:20.81]Yeah, they keep on falling
[02:23.22]Yeah, they keep on falling, falling, falling, yeah
[02:29.54]Nah, I ain't move bricks on the Peter Pan
[02:32.76]No father around to teach me how to be a man
[02:35.13]We was too high, didn't know where we would land
[02:37.92]Scraping coke on the weed til' niggas didn't see a plant
[02:40.63]Alcoholic's child raise off of sugar water
[02:43.41]Headed to you and just thought about how good he was brought up
[02:46.37]Coulda, woulda, outta one track mind
[02:48.42]They say man of many hats buys a hooker for a quarter
[02:50.93]And now I'm writing a book and the hood's the author
[02:54.33]Called the 'Obvious Poker Face, The Look of Torture'
[02:57.18]Teach you how to climb your way out that ditch then
[02:59.35]Me all I need is this pen and thick skin
[03:02.39]Being so bright could mean you lit then
[03:04.74]'Cause you start trying to figure out a figment
[03:07.59]I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops
[03:09.97]'Til then all I hear is wind and rain drops
[03:13.18]Tear drops in the pillow on my bed
[03:15.98]Still trying to keep my head up
[03:19.10]Know you'd rather see me dead
[03:21.53]And the raindrops keep on falling, falling, falling, falling
[03:33.77]Check it out, I'm still waiting on my dad to get back
[03:36.26]He went to the store in '84 and I ain't seen him after that
[03:39.26]Another single mom public assisted the rent wasn't consistent
[03:41.61]So they had us back and forth in court in the months of the blizzard
[03:44.94]My sneakers leaned, the rubber was missing
[03:47.12]No one on ones, they always jumped me
[03:49.17]No brothers and sisters to hold me down
[03:50.51]Along with headphones plugged into a cheap Walkman that ate tapes
[03:54.05]Gun shots and me sleep walking, I hate weights
[03:57.18]A whole lot of crying, police chalking that fake tape
[03:59.43]Ambulance never on time, they like a day late
[04:02.19]My cousin had to vacate, my best friend since age eight
[04:04.95]Sometimes I can't hold them I kid you not
[04:07.86]Eyes get swollen holding on that tissue box, somebody get a mop
[04:11.31]I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops
[04:14.58]'Til then all I'm hearing is wind and raindrops
[04:18.17]Tear drops in the pillow on my bed
[04:20.69]Still trying to keep my head up
[04:22.72]Know you'd rather see me dead
[04:25.20]And the raindrops keep on falling
[04:28.62]Yeah, they keep on falling, they keep on falling
[04:33.79]Falling, yeah, they keep on falling
[04:43.26]And they keep on, and the raindrops keep on falling
[04:48.83]Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
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