Something New - Dead to Me

There's something new in my way 
I thought about him all that day 
Sitting at home, dying alone 
Then again, who am I to say? 

We both know I've been down that same road 
I know it gets lonely when that phone rings 
It's the last thing you wanna hear 

I should know better by now 
But after all, I'm so tired of explaining 
All the things I should have said 

I secretly always knew 
But that news came way too soon 
I was sitting at home and wondering why 
I couldn't even look you in the eye 

I heard all those things that your father told you 
You know it's not right, but taking your own life 
Might be the only thing that you see through 

I should know better by now 
But after all, I'm so tired of explaining 
All the things I should have said 

It's alright to complain 
It's alright to feel pain 

I thought I had the answers to all of my problems 
With one thing but it's always the same 
I go in one door and right out the other 
I'm left with me and James and a million little pieces 

It's not that I want them all 
To be sorry when I'm gone 
I'm just tired of waking up 
I'm gonna try the pills tonight 
I'm gonna try and do it my way 
And watch it all fall apart 

I should know better by now 
But after all, I'm so tired of explaining 
All the things I should have said