The Absentee - Haste

And its felt like lead, too 
Think to let anything else in? 
It is too heavy to stand.
I won't push out, please, God 
This tears me apart on the inside,
You quit and you suck and you are still the same..
As far as I can see I wish to breath, 
I can't take this change,
I would rather stay here 
With my hands gripping my throat.
What now? 
You find yourself on the outside?
What about them? 
What about her?
What about all of your responsibility?
I find this in blood, for some
Easy to walk away,
I find that I can never break, this hurts,
It tears me apart on the inside 
I've quit, we are done,
It seems that now you're the Absentee 
I still feel so much for you