The Great Disappointment - A.F.I.

I can remember a place I used to go.
Chrysanthemums of white, 
they seemed so beautiful. 
I can remember. I searched for amaranth. 
I'd shut my eyes to see. 
Oh, how I smiled then, 
so near the cherished ones. 
I knew they would appear…saw not a single one.
Oh, how I smiled then, 
waiting so patiently. 
I'd make a wish and bleed. 
While I waited I was wasting away. 
I can remember…dreamt them so vividly, 
soft creatures draped in white, 
light kisses gracing me. 
I can remember when I first realized 
dreams were the only place to see them. 
While I waited I was wasting away. 
Hope was wasting away. 
Faith was wasting away. 
I was wasting away. 
I never, never wanted this. 
I always wanted to believe, 
but from the start I'd been deceived. 
I never, never wanted this. 
Inside a crumbling effigy, 
so dies all innocence. 
But you promised me…