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[00:00.05]Oh Lordy, my troubles so hard
[00:05.98]Oh Lord, my troubles so hard
[00:10.99]Oh Lordy, (my troubles) ooh, (Lord), oh
[00:16.36]Oh Lord, (my troubles) ooh (troubles so hard)
[00:21.74]Oh Lordy, (my troubles) ooh, (Lord), oh
[00:27.24]Oh Lord, (my troubles) ooh (troubles so hard)
[00:32.84]I don't reach into the past very much
[00:34.65]For these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts
[00:37.58]Leave me stuck when I reach in memories are seeped in
[00:40.54]Hydrochloric acid, I go to war and get passive
[00:43.01]And freeze up, music helped the ice to thaw
[00:45.67]Put the chisel in the middle, swing the hammer of Thor
[00:48.22]Pull it out of the impossible, Excalibur sword
[00:51.12]Etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings are sore
[00:53.64]The first day that I got sick, ejected from cockpit of living
[00:57.36]19, young teen, waking up bitten
[01:00.17]Posters up, manhunt, Ren went missing
[01:02.79]Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen
[01:05.38]The first year maybe was the hardest
[01:07.43]Waking in the body that was buried like a carcass
[01:10.32]Brain in the lion's den, body in a shark pit
[01:12.88]Waking up in pain again, aching, broken-hearted
[01:15.48]Persistent little bugger, I was bouncing from a doctor
[01:18.00]To a doctor to a doctor, like a table tennis game that has no end
[01:21.51]So be the fate of Ren
[01:23.26]Every single question answered with a question on the end
[01:26.33]The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams
[01:28.96]Mind was severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes
[01:31.52]Brain was inflamed, the fatigue was crushing
[01:34.15]Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting
[01:36.95]And the third year was murder, living in a purga-
[01:39.88]'Tory full of worry, wouldn't live to be 30
[01:42.67]Lifestyle hurt me (yah), always in my bed tomb
[01:45.26]Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell "doom"
[01:48.17]Light hurt my eyes, popping pills to survive
[01:50.46]When you're 23 and mentally, you steadily decline
[01:53.02]24, I was poor, disability benefits
[01:55.81]What's the benefit of disability? It's irrelevant
[01:58.45]25 and the scars that were etched, they cracked
[02:01.04]Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap
[02:03.88]Deep in psychosis, hallucinations, troubled vision
[02:06.95]Visits from the underworld were conjuring my superstition
[02:09.59]25, living back at home with my mum
[02:11.92]But not because I'm a bum, alone and physically done
[02:14.58]So thin, so frail, so weak I'd become
[02:17.03]And my skin so pale, never kissed by the sun
[02:20.18]One time I carved a hole in my chest, just to feel
[02:22.85]I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real
[02:25.43]When you're living in the Holocaust, you buckle and kneel
[02:28.07]There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel
[02:31.17]Fact, 26, I'm highly medicated and the pain sophisticated
[02:34.75]While I'm laying broken, naked on my back
[02:37.06]I brought my microphone into my coffin, started droppin'
[02:39.66]Raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track
[02:42.45]Then man, lo and behold
[02:44.36]I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road
[02:46.92]Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow
[02:49.49]And a cell transplant brought me out of the cold
[02:52.33]And my skin got younger and my body got stronger
[02:54.95]And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed
[02:57.84]And my soul heard music for the first time
[03:00.18]Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold
[03:03.23]Oh Lord, I forgive You, Lord, I forgive You
[03:06.02]Lord, I forgive You, make me whole
[03:08.64]This music I give You, pain that I live through
[03:11.40]Everything I've been through is Yours to hold
[03:14.38]Oh Lordy, my (troubles), troubles so hard
[03:19.47]Oh Lord, my (troubles), troubles so hard
[03:24.92]Don't nobody know my troubles but God
[03:30.33]Don't nobody know my troubles but God
[03:41.12]Troubles so hard, troubles so hard
[03:43.81]Troubles so hard, troubles (so hard)
[03:46.49]I gave up the struggle, and I gave up this trouble
[03:49.01]And I gave up the struggle, and I gave up this trouble
[03:51.63]And I gave up the struggle, and I gave up this trouble
[03:54.47]And I gave up this, gave up this, gave up this, oh
[03:57.55]Oh Lordy, my
[04:02.92]Oh Lordy, my troubles so hard
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