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[00:13.57]My greatest fear is mediocrity
[00:14.87]I wanna be the shit
[00:15.97]Colostomy
[00:16.77]That bitch
[00:17.53]Ferocity
[00:18.02]That drip
[00:18.55]Viscosity
[00:19.35]Nobody's fucking property
[00:20.49]Kiss my pale white butt my philosophy
[00:22.86]Bobby fischer prodigy i'm homer on an odyssey
[00:25.29]Statistically unlikely, still i might be the anomaly
[00:27.63]Smiling but i'm sad, the dichotomy
[00:30.09]If you got some stupid shit to say then don't talk to me
[00:32.74]Experts abound but they're all selling doo doo
[00:35.19]Bamboozled on youtube that man's not a guru
[00:37.26]The paycheck on friday you already blew through
[00:39.64]To finance some diamonds and scoop up a miu miu
[00:42.27]Like new shoes a voodoo
[00:43.68]Might undo the cuckoo
[00:44.66]Your vid gets a few views
[00:46.07]Could patch up the boo boos
[00:47.06]Of childhood rejection and after school boo hoos
[00:49.45]Capitalism religion the virtue
[00:51.86]Spandex and amex and xanax my worldview
[00:54.53]4am benihana that's my curfew
[00:56.99]Jumbo prawns perignon oxymorons
[00:59.13]Isn't it funny that pleasure can hurt you?
[01:01.85]People tell me i'm resilient
[01:04.25]But lord knows i would love to show my feelings
[01:07.18]I would love to explode onto the ceiling
[01:10.04]Jackson pollock paint peeling
[01:13.32]I would love to fuck off say i'm dealing with some shit
[01:16.25]Like i don't get that everybody's dealing with some shit
[01:18.90]Like my struggle is unique, neat
[01:22.18]White girl dead alcoholic dad scared to repeat
[01:25.97]The cycle of vodka nauseous the awful process
[01:29.13]Of top of the class to no options jobless
[01:32.34]Of scrambling thoughts til your head's an omelet
[01:35.02]Of following thomas submit to chaos
[01:38.01]With the privilege of middle class fear
[01:41.30]Plus internalized hate cause i'm queer
[01:43.61]Plus i really wanna have that beer
[01:46.63]I guess the enemy's the face in the mirror
[01:48.78]But there's a tiny little spark in my heart
[01:51.16]I blow on it to to see if there's a fire to start
[01:53.83]The highest power's the nth degree
[01:56.32]That is both infinite and imaginary
[01:59.28]So don't worry about god
[02:01.39]She's smoking cocaine at a bus stop
[02:04.31]She's putting rogaine on a bald spot
[02:06.94]She's feeling no shame in a crop top
[02:09.66]She's loves gandhi and pol pot
[02:11.76]She condones zoloft
[02:13.10]She giveth more when you scream no más
[02:14.92]She told me once in the back of a tour bus
[02:17.59]The highest highs might really be the low spots
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[02:30.88]I'm sitting on a toilet in germany
[02:33.06]I'm brimming with shit and uncertainty
[02:35.94]I'm skimming a novel i purchased in france but i don't parlez-vous
[02:39.93]So it's not making sense
[02:41.24]Aujourd'hui, maman est morte
[02:43.37]I'm trying to comport
[02:44.46]Myself with chic decor
[02:45.80]While i absorb the force
[02:47.08]Of foreign art imports
[02:48.14]While feeling deep remorse
[02:49.77]For all the days of yore
[02:51.00]I guess it's par the course
[02:52.37]I'm trying to undo the stinging of my suburban upbringing
[02:55.38]I feel the venom it sinking into my veins
[02:57.11]I've been drinking the koolaid
[02:58.47]Flutes they keep clinking celebrities they keep winking
[03:01.70]But i've been licking it up
[03:03.06]Touché
[03:04.34]So easy to be tempted
[03:05.96]Hypocrites we all act defensive
[03:08.07]Better see my name in your motherfucking mentions
[03:10.78]Say i want no pics but all the attention
[03:13.44]Yes i'm serious
[03:14.97]Half deaf furious
[03:16.07]Wet eyes blurry
[03:17.38]It's got me worrying
[03:18.64]Not my sturdiest
[03:20.03]Check my verbiage
[03:21.38]Groundhog day
[03:22.67]Feel so bill murrayish
[03:23.92]Yes i'm serious
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[03:30.57]So sick and tired of all this self sabotage
[03:33.23]Eyeliner, punk rock, and black boots my camouflage
[03:35.67]I wanna go back to cartwheels and santa claus
[03:38.81]Forget my regrets and package my baggage up
[03:41.58]I want it all solved in two days like amazon
[03:44.44]Tried to escape from my mind like it's azkaban
[03:47.37]Wasted but didn't crash i felt the hand of god
[03:50.36]Ripple effects hard to tell what the damage was
[03:52.91]Really i feel like i'm feeling the feelings of my inner child
[03:57.30]Who's been pounding the ceiling repeatedly
[03:59.84]Asking for reasons and soothing
[04:01.72]So i found a bottle and covered the bruising
[04:04.47]But i was confusing a numbness for comfort
[04:07.43]Abandoned myself when i slipped under cover
[04:10.43]Surrendering limits but longing for structure
[04:13.35]Developing habits and lusting for hunger
[04:16.03]Selling out packed shows and missing my mother
[04:19.29]Smiling at assholes and feeling outnumbered
[04:21.89]Withering back bone the pressure was crushing
[04:24.89]My spirit exploding the faint scent of sulfur
[04:27.76]Kept hollowing out but see i was the vulture
[04:30.76]Kept losing myself but see i'm the abductor
[04:33.64]Kept chasing the pain, feeding the ulcer
[04:36.15]Said fuck this whole place but see i built the culture
[04:41.35]Yeah i build the culture
[04:43.72]Yeah i build the culture
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[04:50.17]Yeah i build the culture
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