Funeral

This is a funeral

For the puberty I never had

For the relationship with my dad

For the half-assed friends who never texted me back

This is a funeral

For the girls I never kissed

For all the flirting that I missed

When I was too young and in the closet and anxious

To even give a hug

Let alone to hold her hand

This is a funeral

For the times I was black

'Cause I was scared to be a firework

Scared my sparks would cause burns

Scared my lights would leave them blind

This is a burial for 1000 lives

This is a funeral

This is a funeral

For the church folks that resisted

For the times I was convinced that

I didn't deserve love that they did

'Cause what's between my legs doesn't matter

When I die

This is a funeral

For the expectation I'll do anything but survive

This is my eulogy for being alive

This is a funeral

I'm ok the funeral's the start of healing pain

(This is a funeral)

Grief can't get me if I am awake

(This is a funeral)

Beginner's mind is how I learn to be safe

(This is a funeral)