Come pick me up, I'll pay for gas
There's nowhere that I want to be
And you'll drive fast, and I won't ask to pick the music on the street
And we can talk about whatever, and pretend that we won't tell
Even pretending to ourselves
You think it's easy where it's darker
And I like to feel my heart
Speed up with my eyes shut
And feel we're doing something we should not
So for a time I spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
Just trying to guess when we'll get caught
This place is suffocating
I'll still be here in five years
Like I promise I won't, through the wind, in your ears
But nothing feels this urgent
And these nights are still important
And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet
Every time I feel alive, it will feel just like this
I'll get the things you did, forget the boy I kissed
By the hangar, and you'll both be strangers to me
Tonight it matters that how I'm not a person who you want to see
'Cause I like to talk about the hospital and go when I don't need it
Just to show the world I feel it, I only ever did it once
And it was selfish, it was fun
But I can't bring myself to
Hate me for wanting a break
I'll still be here in five years
Where I made every mistake
16 turned to disappear
For one week, and a half
You know it's all an act
'Cause there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet
This place is suffocating
I'll still be here in five years
Like I promise I won't, through the wind, in your ears
But nothing feels this urgent
And these nights are still important
And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet