I've been drinking all my mommas whiskey
I've been staying up alone at night
I've been thinkin' 'bout mistakes I'm paying for
For which I still don't know the price
I've been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right
I just don't know tonight, yeah
I've been feeling like the Knicks now
Had to sacrifice last year to try and land a pick now
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I'm still pissed Netflix dropped The Get Down
And when I get down, ain't no end, shit that's everyday
Even on the bestest of days, cups in the air 'till the rest can relate, yeah
I've been finding grooves in the madness, yeah
I've been little bruised with the sadness, yeah
I've been drinking booze to distract shit, yeah
I've been becoming the cliche
Don't want them to wait 'till the end of the game to check on me
I ain't instant replay homie, I be way lonely
Be on my phone where they be way phony
I made an album, I think it's amazing
I'm scared you won't like it though
Whatchu know 'bout that?
Like when you write your truth can't say it was typo yo
I mix my gangster with delicate
I've been afraid of the evidence
I'm in my jaded-est elements
Soul is on fire, just hope that my hope doesn't vacate the premises
Fame be the flakiest sedative
And I'm most afraid of irrelevance now
I've been treating women like my heart is Trump and like all my feelings is Mexicans
It ain't that I'm afraid to let 'em in, I'm just an emotional veteran
Emotion just ain't worth the stress in it
And all of these pressures been festering
Little bit of strength and a little bit of paint
What I work with now, that's all I need
Little bit of faith, and a hint of some restraint
Wish I had more round, that's not what I see
They give me applause and a bunch of oos and ahhs at the bars
But homie that's not all I be
2020 they gon' get to know me, me
Sun is comin' shinin' above us and it's a good day
May Jehovah tell me what love is, wish you could tell me somethin'
Fuck it, lose your friends, lose your soul to trends
Losin' love to make the ends to get the means to make the Ms
To look behind but play pretend and wish that you could play again but different now
The climate feel like winter now
This shit ain't real, it's all just smoke and mirrors, wow
Sinnin' alcoholic, yeah I've been it
Lyin', cheatin', yeah I did it
Wear that shoe, 'cause I fit it, yeah
Are you livin' what you rap 'bout?
Or are you livin' in a sad house?
Or do you really get enough rest?
Like fuck it, I'm about to cash out
Rooftop in my hometown
Where the sweet chick is my soul food
Got a new face and a new way
But she only fuckin' with the old you
So I been movin' in and out the city
Time to time you gotta cut the lights
Told my shorty I been hella busy
Momma told me don't believe the hype
I been somewhere holdin' down the porch
Livin' free and takin' no advice
Take the Johnny Walker over ice
Devil always puttin' up a fight
I been drinkin', I been drinkin', yeah
I been drinkin' all my momma's whiskey
I been stayin' up alone at night
I been thinkin' 'bout mistakes I'm payin' for
For which I still don't know the price
I been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right, yeah
I just don't know tonight, yeah
I been drinkin' all my momma's whiskey
I been stayin, up alone at night
I been thinkin' 'bout mistakes I'm payin' for
For which I still don't know the price
I been actin' like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right, yeah
I just don't know tonight, yeah