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[00:09.33]I am wide awake
[00:11.48]Staring at your face and
[00:13.63]I'm wondering if you're safe
[00:14.90]I'm wondering if it's fake
[00:15.92]And my heart is racing
[00:18.03]Afraid of what you hide (what you hide, what you hide)
[00:19.98]Afraid of ways you lie and
[00:22.17]Afraid of what I'll find
[00:23.25]Afraid I'll spend my life
[00:24.49]Crying when I'm smiling
[00:25.63]Can't tell if I love you
[00:27.07]Or I'm sleeping with the enemy
[00:29.76]Some days I can't tell my intuition from anxiety
[00:33.95]I'm too scared to tell you
[00:35.83]'Cause what if you get fed up and leave?
[00:38.45]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[00:42.54]PTSD, PTSD
[00:47.00]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[00:51.26]PTSD, PTSD
[00:55.67]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[01:00.81]I'm good, I'm good, okay?
[01:02.78]My armor's suffocating
[01:05.15]I guess it comes in waves
[01:06.01]I get used to the ache
[01:07.03]But it's asphyxiating
[01:08.31]Can't tell if I love you
[01:10.17]Or I'm sleeping with the enemy
[01:12.59]Some days I can't tell my intuition from anxiety
[01:16.89]I'm too scared to tell you
[01:18.59]'Cause what if you get fed up and leave?
[01:21.12]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[01:25.63]PTSD, PTSD
[01:29.68]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[01:34.05]PTSD, PTSD
[01:38.34]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[01:42.60]I'm just a sad girl stacking up my money
[01:46.69]I'm doing big things 'cause my mama didn't want me
[01:51.02]I try to be a saint, so I'm worthy of affection
[01:55.38]But I'm still afraid, 'cause love is a murder weapon
[01:59.85]Some days I get so damn lonely
[02:03.72]'Cause everybody's fake (everybody's fake)
[02:08.01]I trust the only one who knows me
[02:12.32]'Cause no one else feels safe
[02:16.89]PTSD, PTSD
[02:21.37]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[02:25.65]PTSD, PTSD
[02:29.84]Some days I can't tell my paranoia from PTSD
[02:34.11]I'm just a sad girl stacking up my money
[02:38.26]I'm doing big things 'cause my mama didn't want me
[02:42.40]I try to be a saint, so I'm worthy of affection
[02:46.78]But I'm still afraid 'cause love is a murder weapon
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