I got
A part of me broken
I'm guarding myself
From the scars I'm exposing
Harder to feel I'm at peace
With My heart in the open
Harder to breathe
Through the sparks of weed
But it's help
When i harbor commotion
As a Spartan
I need to be hard as can be
But it hurts
To discard my emotions
Pressed for the bottle that caught
The tears off me quietly
Fear of sobriety
Years of the tyranny
Clear as a day with no thunder
Here I am tryna be
The calm before the storm
I'm constantly at war
I stand for me denying blame
But never learn to build
Understandably while hiding pain
I never learn to heal
With
The phantom of my lies
Will haunt my brain until revealed
And until my bed is made
I'll spend these days
With waves of guilt
From the
Pit of confinement,
I could see the spots of truth
By just
Digging through my dirt
You'll see a heap of toxic roots
See the purity is gone
And Insecurity run loose
With every issue that arises
It's get buried in excuse
Inside my soul
I pray my body don't turn cold
Before i learn to face my problems
I pray someday I gain control
Take me as i am
I been flawed
Hold my hand
Don't let me fall
I been scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared of commitment
Scared that these women
Might destroy the inner wiring
Of our future
In this shared existence
Scared of addiction
Scared that my usage
And abuses in my plight
Could send me right back
To my doomed position
Scared of decisions
Scared that the
Pressures that consumes
Me in the night
Gon push this knife
End my truth
This instant
Scared of assistance
Scared that me asking you for help
Gon show my weaknesses
While my pride
Gon make me move against it
I wear this mask out daily
I keep my feelings silent
I scream to show my strength
I don't like being violent
I hate that fact I'm hardened
Can't even get emotional
Don't try open up to me
I'm just gon fucking ghost you
Don't say you proud of me
That's just gon jam me up
If it start crying
Do that mean I'm still not man enough
And All this time
My pain rejected all the years
Was just an effort to find greatness
And acceptance amongst my peers
Take me as i am
I been flawed
Hold my hand
Don't let me fall
I been scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life