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[00:49.27]I got
[00:50.60]A part of me broken
[00:51.98]I'm guarding myself
[00:52.70]From the scars I'm exposing
[00:54.40]Harder to feel I'm at peace
[00:54.87]With My heart in the open
[00:56.24]Harder to breathe
[00:56.90]Through the sparks of weed
[00:57.89]But it's help
[00:58.43]When i harbor commotion
[00:59.51]As a Spartan
[01:00.07]I need to be hard as can be
[01:00.89]But it hurts
[01:01.38]To discard my emotions
[01:02.79]Pressed for the bottle that caught
[01:04.84]The tears off me quietly
[01:05.91]Fear of sobriety
[01:07.52]Years of the tyranny
[01:09.20]Clear as a day with no thunder
[01:11.01]Here I am tryna be
[01:12.32]The calm before the storm
[01:13.60]I'm constantly at war
[01:15.23]I stand for me denying blame
[01:16.86]But never learn to build
[01:18.11]Understandably while hiding pain
[01:19.72]I never learn to heal
[01:21.43]With
[01:21.95]The phantom of my lies
[01:22.73]Will haunt my brain until revealed
[01:24.36]And until my bed is made
[01:25.70]I'll spend these days
[01:27.10]With waves of guilt
[01:27.55]From the
[01:28.48]Pit of confinement,
[01:28.70]I could see the spots of truth
[01:30.56]By just
[01:31.35]Digging through my dirt
[01:31.84]You'll see a heap of toxic roots
[01:33.75]See the purity is gone
[01:35.04]And Insecurity run loose
[01:36.69]With every issue that arises
[01:38.04]It's get buried in excuse
[01:39.62]Inside my soul
[01:42.37]I pray my body don't turn cold
[01:45.52]Before i learn to face my problems
[01:48.13]I pray someday I gain control
[01:51.34]Take me as i am
[01:54.06]I been flawed
[01:55.47]Hold my hand
[01:56.99]Don't let me fall
[01:58.38]I been scared for my whole life
[02:01.73]Scared, scared for my whole life
[02:04.72]Scared for my whole life
[02:07.98]Scared for my whole life
[02:11.19]Scared for my whole life
[02:14.10]Scared, scared for my whole life
[02:18.41]Scared of commitment
[02:19.76]Scared that these women
[02:20.74]Might destroy the inner wiring
[02:22.37]Of our future
[02:23.12]In this shared existence
[02:24.56]Scared of addiction
[02:25.35]Scared that my usage
[02:26.89]And abuses in my plight
[02:28.28]Could send me right back
[02:29.06]To my doomed position
[02:30.07]Scared of decisions
[02:31.37]Scared that the
[02:32.42]Pressures that consumes
[02:34.01]Me in the night
[02:34.56]Gon push this knife
[02:35.04]End my truth
[02:35.98]This instant
[02:36.75]Scared of assistance
[02:38.10]Scared that me asking you for help
[02:39.62]Gon show my weaknesses
[02:40.78]While my pride
[02:41.44]Gon make me move against it
[02:42.88]I wear this mask out daily
[02:44.15]I keep my feelings silent
[02:45.73]I scream to show my strength
[02:47.37]I don't like being violent
[02:48.98]I hate that fact I'm hardened
[02:50.25]Can't even get emotional
[02:52.16]Don't try open up to me
[02:53.76]I'm just gon fucking ghost you
[02:55.36]Don't say you proud of me
[02:56.67]That's just gon jam me up
[02:58.23]If it start crying
[02:59.60]Do that mean I'm still not man enough
[03:01.44]And All this time
[03:02.76]My pain rejected all the years
[03:03.75]Was just an effort to find greatness
[03:05.99]And acceptance amongst my peers
[03:18.63]Take me as i am
[03:21.12]I been flawed
[03:22.45]Hold my hand
[03:24.31]Don't let me fall
[03:25.68]I been scared for my whole life
[03:29.17]Scared, scared for my whole life
[03:32.02]Scared for my whole life
[03:35.24]Scared for my whole life
[03:38.43]Scared for my whole life
[03:41.12]Scared, scared for my whole life
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