It's wintertime in my mind, out my head
Overtime, out of line, under-slept
Under read, over grind, underfed
Tore me to pieces and tossed me like Wonder Bread
Nothing's been lookin' up, feelings keep cookin' up
Monster in my closet, me and him hookin' up
'Cause it's fight or it's flight
So I'm on a plane every night
And I beat up myself 'til I eat up myself
Up, down, left, right, yeah, I cheat on myself
Focused on times when I needed your help
But you left me a mess, I can't clean up myself
I'm trapped in spiderwebs
Made from things you said and promised
I just can't pretend all this pain will end, no stoppin'
These self-destructive thoughts stay with me all the time
You got me locked in, I'm trapped in
I'm trapped in your design (I'm trapped in)
Broken-down zombie, mechanics work on me
I can't figure it out, you don't want me?
Trust me, I'm lyin', I gave up, I'm tryin'
Got eyes in the back of my head, so stay silent
'Cause I see red with thoughts of you mixed in it
Hateful, my veins cold like Michigan
Used to fixate on pictures of us
Now I see them and throw up my guts
Throw up my guts, this can't be love
Bury it deep down with nothin' above
A bottomless pit where I'm never enough
Dream someone's chasin' me, but I can't run
I'm trapped in spiderwebs
Made from things you said and promised
I just can't pretend all this pain will end, no stoppin'
These self-destructive thoughts stay with me all the time
You got me locked in, I'm trapped in
I'm trapped in your design (I'm trapped in)
I'm trapped in
I've been trapped inside your spiderweb
I'm too-t-too fa-far g-g-gone
Trapped inside your spiderweb
I'm too-too fa-far, too-too, fa-far
(You left me a mess, I can't clean up myself)